I had some experience as a Holistic Healthcare Practitioner before becoming a wife and a mother, but for 10 years after, I mostly immersed myself in nurturing our family. Studies became what I gained from library books, reading cookbooks like novels, and devouring the latest health articles passed around online. Sharing knowledge with friends was second nature, but teaching really became the small sermons I would give my children, when they questioned why we do things differently.
Over time, meditation, yoga, and other sacred daily rituals for myself, became a thing of the past, as I focused more on meal preparation, school projects, and cleaning up. Snuggle time was wonderful, however, mommy time alone became non existent, and many times, I struggled. Although I felt blessed in regard to my new roles, I really lost connection with myself, and despite my passion for health and helping others, I became unhealthy and isolated.
As a child, I had a history of depression. Growing up was difficult, until I found my path in theatre and performing arts in my late teens, and my path toward health in my early 20’s. I began to study yoga, nutrition, massage therapy, herbology, TCM/Eastern energy medicines, and many other healing modalities. The more I learned about holistic health and the mind/body connection, the more I wanted to know. I had found my tribe, and my joy and calling.
After marrying, moving to a new country, having the kids, and then losing my way again, the emotional difficulties returned. I suffered from many bouts of postpartum anxiety and sadness. I loved my family, but I often felt stifled and squished into a box with new labels and check lists. I was easily overwhelmed, and just not used to taking care of myself, as I focused primarily on the needs of my family. We all suffered until I returned to my path, got the support I needed, and started healing myself again.
Sometimes when we don’t feel our best, we start to question our self worth. For many of us, there are days that feel like the challenges are insurmountable. The days that feel like we are “broken”, and just can’t be “fixed”. The times as a mom that we are just doing what we have to do to get through the day and survive. Especially now, during these intense times, we want everyone to feel safe and loved, and we do not feel we have the time to see the gifts in the challenges, or the time to focus on healing ourselves. I know I didn’t want to use the time, money, or energy that I felt belonged to my family, so I could work on “feeling better”. However, once I was able to recognize my deeper need to find myself again, and finally listen to my heart, I diligently learned to incorporate the self care needed to feel strong and joyful again. This has blessed us all immensely. I believe that when a person becomes fully present with themselves, it not only blesses their family, but truly blesses the world.
I am still evolving, but the journey and the discovery has been profound. Sometimes, getting clear on what is important is a challenge. Uncovering the deeper layers and triggers from the past can still be difficult and painful. However, having mentors and the support of like minded souls allows me to move through it with more awareness, curiosity, and compassion. I do not need to be “fixed”, merely open to a new perspective and accepting of what is, in order to move forward into a new possibility. A new way of being.
Now that I am in a healthier place, I am able to acknowledge that when someone has been to a place of overwhelm and despair, they are better equipped to help others climb out of it. I am now better equipped, and it is so exciting to support others. I do not presume to have it all figured out. However, when a person walks into a room with something of value to share, they walk in as the best version of themselves. Every time I am in a position to teach or connect with others, to be of service and help, or feel myself on a path of purpose and connection, I feel I am exactly where I am meant to be, and I am reminded of my strengths, not my weaknesses. Whether it is leading a group, or supporting an individual with their health and personal goals, I feel so much gratitude for what I do. The journey to where we are is a powerful one, and I am delighted to be on it with you.
I want to show up in life each day as the best version of myself, and I would love to help you do the same.
Each of us has so much to offer. We are seeds of potential, just waiting to blossom. Let’s feed and water you. Let’s discover what you need to feel better and fully bloom. Let’s celebrate the challenges that inform you and help you grow. We will tune in together, and find the joy again.
As women, we need each other. We need to feel acknowledged and heard. We need to honor the mirrors we are for one another in order to grow. There are desperate places we visit, that in their depths, have a well of strength. We want to feel safe to be our authentic selves, as the wise woman in us knows we can. Without all the programs and fears we have adopted, we can step into that potential.
It has often been said that we underestimate the power of community. I see this firsthand when I hold space for the group. It is such a high to see each of us transform. There is power and support in the presence of our circles. There is power in getting the encouragement we need.
Whether it is private sessions together, or in the presence of our beautiful community, I hope you will join me on this beautiful path back to wholeness …on this journey of becoming the very best version of YOU… accepting and delighting in the celebration of who we are, and all we choose to be.